"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."

The quote I chose for the title is so true...I challenge you live your life as if everything is a miracle.



This has been an interesting week...on Monday and Tuesday I was thinking wow I need to make myself pray more often I mean I always pray before I go to bed but never throughout the day unless I need something. Well I didn't do anything about it and on Wednesday a Daily YSA gym came as an email and it said "In the hectic, pressure-filled schedules you face, I . . . know how easy it is to let prayer slip. Some of you hit the snooze button on your alarm clocks, thinking you can eke out just another minute or two of sleep, then jerk awake realizing that you are going to be late for school or work. On such mornings, prayer gets pushed aside, perhaps with a feeble promise to yourself that you will do better tomorrow." I thought wow this is me so I have been focused on praying more and I am going to make this my goal this month to really get into the habit of praying more often and not just before bed and when I need things.



I am going to get back into the habit of reading my scriptures a lot because I have slipped on this too.



I have been giving a lot of thought to want I want to do as I grow up. I'm still not sure exactly what I want to be only what I want to go to school for. I have had this whole new realization that I want to get married and have kids in the nearer future than I ever thought I would especially since I didn't even want kids. I was always so afraid of raising kids and not knowing how but after joining the church I feel so much stronger and like I will be a great mother or at least the best I can be. I oftentimes watch movies and read books and think of how I want my life to be and it is really funny to me that I got this message on facebook today.

"Ashley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
...
that to find out who you are becoming find stories that move your heart.Just
like a seed has an image of the tree in it, so does your heart have an image of
who you are becoming. Look for stories in movies and books that resonate in your
heart, and you will find glimpses of your possible futures. What is your
favorite story?"

I am really bothered by the things people say that are mean to me about joining the church or that are discouraging. My family hurts me a lot with the things that they say. I don't think they realize that it hurts me like it does. I am really upset that my best friends have soo much resentment from me joining the church. My family and friends act as if I am turning against them by being LDS. I think it is because I do soo many church things but it is because I love the activities and being surrounded by the people. I just want them to be happy and feel the way I do and if they can't why can they not just be happy for me? :(....I don't want to argue with them I just want them to understand. Is it too much to ask to ask my friends to not watch antimovies and crazy FLDS things and let me or someone else who is actually from the church explain it to them or to ask my family to let me say a quick prayer at the dinner table? When I was little they didn't mind me praying at the dinner table but now that I am LDS it is a whole different story. I just don't understand why it is so different now that I am a member than it was when Nathan or Kayla were around. Ugh... I am so hurt and frustrated.



........But anyways.....



I am AMAZED at how much my life has changed since I have joined the church. I love the church soo much. My perspective on life has changed a lot. Like I mentioned before I am no longer scared to get married and have children. I am soo excited about being able to get married in the temple someday. I have become more of a nature lover because the HF has given us this beautiful earth and this life with free agency that we should be thankful for I am not so lost and confused because the gospel makes soo much more sense...it all fits together soo well. I now feel the spirit soo much stronger. I in general am a happier person. We should be thankful for every little thing that we have because a lot of times we don't know what we have until it is gone. Everyone needs to just live, laugh, love. Stop having negative thoughts and live your life with love and make it a point to not hurt other people.