Change

Heavenly Father has been full of changes in my life. It is amazing what he will do in your life when you let him. Life as I know it is about to change in amazing ways. I am heading out to Idaho on April 4th to start a new educational endeavor at Brigham Young University Idaho. This is less than a month away. This is totally unbelievable to me. I am very bittersweet about the lasts but I know there are many firsts yet to come. My emotions have been all over the place for quite a while now. I am amazed at how strong I am at times. I am also amazed at how much my emotions are affected by those who mean a lot to me. I hate to see those I love down and I would do anything to put a smile on their face. This sometimes causes me to be to be overused or hurt but I recover quickly. I need to keep a good head on my shoulders and remember that I can't make things happen that aren't meant to be. I know that I ask for a lot of patience and it's the opposite of what I give sometimes but I can only give everything I have and sometimes I don't feel like it's enough. I have a hard time remembering it is in His timing and not mine. I am far from perfect but I understand this and I strive towards perfection one day at a time. It may not seem like it at times because I know I fail and fall short but as soon as I realize I am heading the wrong way I change my direction and move on. I have a hard time with forgetting the past and moving on. It's not that I want to go back to the past just that I like the good memories and usually have forgotten the bad. One of my biggest faults is that I am a worrywart. I sometimes worry over small things but then realize that they weren't actually that big of a deal. I am so thankful for the friends that I have that help me to become a better person. Those who are a good example and those who are constant reminders while still being loving and uplifting. I have had so many great influences in my life that I could not even begin to thank everyone. Although, I have not always had the best things in my life I know that my family has definitely not fallen short on one thing and that is the love that they give me. I am so thankful for this love and this is one thing that makes my move to Idaho so hard but I know that Heavenly Father’s plan is what is best and that everything else will work out. Thank you to those who are being patient with me. Although, I let a lot of things roll off my back. I do sometimes get hurt easily. I am usually fairly confident but I do need reassurance every now and then. I love you all and I know that I have really gone off topic but there were some things that I just needed to write down and get out.

Love Always,
Ashley :)